Procrastination

Don't be fooled by the cuddly name: she's still all woman. I could name, in order of release, every album and EP. While I don't mind my family, I kind of don't want to be in the house itself.

I don't think that this is true and I can make a real case for it in this case. Because I'm not per se; I just don't want to talk to her.

Perhaps it's not pretending when you want to be something to admire. I don't like your template though, it kind of makes your words hard to read!

I only procrastinate with things I don't care about, and try to perfect the things that I am proud of.

Tell me she didn't want to try the relationship and then tell me what had happened and that she actually did want to try when she got here? He told me he didn't want to try anymore, that it was killing our realtionship. I just don't want to try anymore. I mean the whole point of this is - I can't see whats going to happen next.. and that scares me, I press my lips onto this mirror we call life and blow till my cheeks expand but I go nowhere, and neither does my breath. I was going to write you a poem, but it is nine in the morning and my brain is still at home in bed. I mean, why shouldn't I have a dozen dicks to choose from for the rest of my life?

Men FTW!

He was male.

She called me from school today and said it was the best anti-social invention since the bedroom.

Looking from him, and his great performance, to the concern on the faces of everyone around us, I laughed so hard tears were streaming down my cheeks. If a social science class mislabeled something according to your faith, would you correct the teacher/t. a./professor aloud during class, or voice your objections quietly during the break?

I knew this was something I had to do, but the internal fighting began to wear down my upbeat attitude which changed to a negative, depressed personality. This was the second most difficult time in my life. This time in my life is where I created two of my greatest friendships, which had a profound affect on my life. Thus bringing me to the third most difficult experience of my life. I just took a load of pain killers and lay in my bed all night in agony. God the Holy Spirit is in you. And the streets filled with water.

Because swirling around in that water, besides the occasional broken bottle, the trash, the oil, anti-freeze, and other car muck, is shit. I am not very squeamish, but putting my foot up to the ankle in the murky waters of a Mexican street makes me shudder.

And before I could get past the main square, the sprinkles turned to a downpour.

I'm really in the best situation of my life- with a man that I adore and who both completes and compliments me.

For the Win!

What kind of morons live in this god forsaken country? That's what I've been getting lately when I look at this site.

If I didn't know me, I might wonder what I've been smoking. Correct viewing of this site requires IE 5.0 or higher. What Kind Of Star Wars Fan Are You?

So I want to explore that line of thinking a bit just because Im afraid of it, you know..

Or would you just let him have his space and share the Lonely Hill comfortably as I think you want him to do for you?

Oh yes, one day your children will find that picture of you in your big hair and M.C. Sometimes I have to bribe Big Mike with a bottle of vodka to drive over in his van so I can collect an item that's too big to fit into my 13-year-old Mazda hatchback. How can i trust them when they just treat me like crap... arg... the bible says in Matthew somewhere... that we must become children to get close to God... and we must have a childs trust... and that any man who takes this childs trust and abuses it.. will be punished severly.... i dont want them to be punished.. i just wish they would get saved... i just want them to know God... and all they can do is treat me like crap. So I found some mp3 software that was just over 1 MB of male models like Jason Shaw, and would burn cd's of mp3s, each with this program on it. I wanted them to be proud of me, and see that I was going some place with my life, I wanted them to want some of that I guess.

Some days it's a pity that I don't utilize this to everyone else's benefit, but I know that it's something I would later regret.

What a mistake that was, the pain I had in my stomach was unlike any other I've ever had.

I'm to sexy for my blog...

Tangent: Apparently, the really popular names for guys at acadeca this year included Brian, Alex, Joe, and Brad. But I worry, not really for myself, but for everybody else who's not as lucky. I have no wisdom I have no honor I have no love no patience no understanding which sounds the same as wisdom but really it is completely different.. and I just need to stop myself sometimes and realize I am just heading in the wrong direction.. I have sat up waiting for Alfred to call me tonight. But geez, does everything have to be so fricking difficult? To everything You are... If they don't have a paper ballot, then ask for a knife to slit your wrists with.

Here's a thought, why don't you take a hint that I don't want you in my fucking life!

Viva Eddie

So, we made our way to the back of the bar and got some champagne. I'll write what time school ends and all, k? EN JOY THiSBOY: its just the matter of having time between us differentiate what we both feel about being bestfriends..

Which, I've never really done because I've kept going back to visit people that I know there. I don't want to talk to anyone about this because I hate for people to feel sorry for me and so here I am talking to a computer!

Yes, I know to most people, 400 miles is already a lengthy drive.... but I'm quite used to that.

However, as of the beginning of July, we are back to being friends again and that is a very nice thing.

Brandon sits next to me, and Jermaine sits on the other side of me, I wasn't feeling that, so I get up and move. We live in a cynical world, and in order to change that we have to step up and question the way things are perceived; however, the curse being, that you must constantly defend yourself when you challenge people. We destroy others and ourselves to benefit only ourselves. I wish I could give you some good news, however, I must inform you all that on Tuesday, thirty-three days into the vow, I gave in and had sex with a women, and it was good.

Next Time

Heard them honking at each other, saying hello. Feel free to hit that little X up there. Surveys - A couple fun little survey things that I took. I wrote about a couple days ago, right? Right now, yes.

I stopped caring about a few things and I have no work ethic anymore. Sometimes my mind will wander and come up with things that are beyond grasp and can alter my reality, but I honestly mean well.

I have handcuff's you can spend all day by my side while I walk around telling people about my new closet slave, I predict about 10 'what the hell' glares and three 'Get the fuck away from me's but people can surprise you right? Around 8:15 tonight, I found out that a Phi Tau had died of alcohol poisoning.

I just wish that things were back to how they were, with Bill here everyday, and none of my friends had graduated and moved far away, and they're all still here to talk to and hang out with. Crazy Skinny person... and jeez sannie, everyone has they bad days ya know?

I love Men

After living with your own issues for years, you are probably far more prepared to deal with them. Which one of you single, horny bitches is going with me? I'll miss you bitches. Why don't you just permanently insert your tongue into your man's anus, because that's where it ends up most of the time anyway. I resent the fact that you give prefrence to an employee who lies, manipulates, and is ineffectual at her job just because she has her nose so far up your ass you can't tell where she ends and you begin. I wanted to email you to tell you that I liked your diary and that I'd help with the html.

I wanted to ask if I was the one who should be hearing this and not my mother, perhaps? Only come to find that not even a month and a half after the legal papers went through he's still issuing emotional blows. You'd think marriage was a cake and if they gave some to the gay people, there'd be none left that wasnt eaten or slobbered on for everyone else to eat. That was the slowest 7 months ever!

It was a steal for the money that we paid for it. Where in Kansas were YOU groomed for life?

I'm a sucker for a beautiful pair of eyes. I could be like Russell Crowe in A Beautiful Mind, or Geoffrey Rush in the film of the life of the piano genius Shine.

Friends of the family, Win Hinshaw and his Auntie Rayette, were already invited - and here's a classic example of why I don't believe in coincidence.

I'm here!

I'm alive!